There is no way I could put my dog down, even if I knew it was for the best.
We took our last dog to the vet when it was clear that she was in to much pain to enjoy life anymore. That drive was hard enough to do for me.
I know. I had someone tell me one time that you arent a true dog owner unless you can euthanize your own dog. I don't buy that. I'm not sure I could put my dog down myself either. If I had to I could I guess. I was holding my last dog on my lap petting him when the vet euthanized him, that was bad enough but I felt I owed it to him to be with him to the end, and I was right.
I've grown attached to this cat over the years but it's just not the same attachment you can have with a dog. I had that dog put down 5 years ago and we've replaced him, and I still miss him. I don't think that will be the case with the cat. I honestly think I would give my own life to protect my present dog, I know that wouldn't be the case with the cat. I do care enough that I hate seeing her in this condition but there was never a time I would sacrifice myself for her, not even close.
To you cat people out there, I understand your strong cat feelings, I just don't share them so much.
Anyway, tomorrow is probably the day, I got the go ahead from my wife (and she's out of town for the week so I've got to handle this alone), so the cat and I will enjoy each others company as much as she can and she will drink as much cat milk as she can handle, because its the only thing she still likes.
I'll figure out the best, fastest, fool proofest way I can do this.
On a lighter note, I know I won't be doing it the way a former coworker of mine did. He tried to gas his beloved cat (that cat was like his child) by putting it in a box with the car exhaust running into it. He said the cat yelled to get out of the box for 45 minutes and then got quiet. He opened the box and lifted what he thought was a dead cat out of the box only to find out that he had given the cat brain damage. My coworker lost his nerve and let the cat live for another year with brain damage. The cat couldn't even walk, it just pushed itself along on its side, it couldnt eat right and needed to be fed with a straw, it would crap and piss on itself. My coworker felt so bad that he couldn't even take it to the vet to put down after that. It was a real psycological event for him, neither him nor the cat were the same after that.